once i wake, i dive into the pools
of calm water on the leaves
on my skin
puddles on the ground
oceans replace those four walls
that never accomplished anything—except hold me back
and i catch sight of what lies ahead because
i finally realized my future resides in the sun
lately i have been too afraid of blistering
my skin is pale
i didn’t want to overheat
but illuminated candles no longer radiate enough light
they were always a waste of money
the fear generated a friendship with the
moon
an attachment i do not regret
though i find i need more
friends–connection–conversation–
i’m a strong believer in delayed satisfaction &
fifteen second chances
i’m learning that it is okay to be alone with my thoughts
when the earth needs the human in me
i need the currents to pull me under
my lungs may be filled with water
but i have never inhaled so wholly.